Shock/disappointed/depressed/resigned

2008 marks a new beginning for me. New responsibilities or should I say, more responsibilities? Both, actually. My peak this year seems to be a whole lot more overwhelming than previous years. Managing ppl is one of my main agenda too and that can be quite disturbing.

Worst kind of engagement: Terrible client including their staff, accounting figures keep changing, audit assistants with no sense of urgency and many more.

Guess I am really lucky. So lucky that I should try my luck in buying the big sweep one of these days. I am given the W.O.R.S.T. engagement. Everyone in their lifetime would have experienced that at least once. Shock /disappointed /depressed /unbearable /resigned described my current feelings. At 6.53am, Tuesday 29/1/08. I am very pressed for time. Everyone is delaying my work. I can't expect my client to have the kind of urgency in them. It would be a bonus if they do have. The pressure cooker inside me is gonna explode any minute. This is the peak period but my assistant doesn't seem to understand. Working long hours seem to be an issue for her. It is depressing when she seems upset when I asked her to work on weekends. If peak means 9 to 5, it would not be called a peak. I am fine if the work assigned can be completed properly at the comfort of her home. But nope, more work for me because I have to clean up the mess. So as not to upset her weekend, I allowed my assistant to work from home. End result: a depressing weekend for me. I need to get my work done. It is really difficult to be in the position I am in. I have to answer to my manager if my work's not completed in time. I do not wish to feedback to my manager that my assistant has no sense of urgency, quality of work is not up to standard and always chatting online during work.

I am beginning to lose my sleep. Work kept circling in my head. I dreamt of work, clients and my colleagues. This is a bad sign. Very bad sign. I wish someone can give me a comfort hug now and let me cry out loud.