Tired. Very very tired. My eyes're tired too. When will it be for me to collapse completely? When is D-Day? I never enjoy competition but I enjoy watching competition. What an irony, yeah? Sadly, life is full of ironies including mine. 'Think about the irony. Are you thinking about the irony?' These're the lines which H likes to use on me out of sheer harmless teasing. I was always amused and 'irritated' whenever he made those statements. Just like my new-found interest;blogging (something I'd dismiss as an interest of mine in the past). It is another medium of telling people or should I say 'sharing' with others how my day was in a non-verbal manner. It doesn't bother me whether anyone is interested in my daily activities or I get many hits on my blog everyday. Logically, I can save on telecommunication expenses. Did I hear cheapskate? Yes, I am a cheapskate & I am so PROUD of being one!! But wait a minute, maybe I am not so cheapie since I need to pay for internet bills which costs > a 50-dollar bill yet the internet connection is breaking down so often. Maybe I should switch to a different internet service provider. Any good recommendations, anyone?

Will I lose interest in this new interest? This statement sounds so funny and silly. Will I stop writing my thoughts online? I guess one day I will.

I wish I can fall into a deep sleep without bringing along any memories because I am deeply hurt. So hurt that I felt like my heart is being punctured a couple of times. I don't shine anymore. Most probably, I never shine in the first place when I thought I did.